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LeVzi
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 Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:45:02
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Sketchy,
Sorry to hear that and fair play, sorry to hear about your health. I fully hold my hands up and admit I've made a mistake. You've done nothing wrong whatsoever.
I've been a tosser entirely and for most the part, with my own mental health stuff (as people here who know me will agree), I take shit too far and go overboard. 2bh, I only post on here when pissed anyway (as when sober, anxiety gets the better of me), usually that means I have a gripe with someone about a non issue and let it vent, massively going overboard and being a complete twat. Sadly at that moment, I saw your comment first really. You've helped make some classics and are an asset to the core scene.
Sincerely I apologise and it's rare I say that here. Respect man and any time you want to talk about mental health stuff if it's down to a low point again, give me a buzz as I know what it's like (Trust me, the pug in all my music vid uploads has saved me).
Respect and genuine apologies again... keep posting here!!!!
Here we go again, Sparkz crying about his mental health and using it as his excuse to be a prick.
Well guess what little boy, having so called "mental health" issues isn't an excuse to be a c_u_n_t , and only a pathetic sad little wnker would do it. If I attack someone I don't go saying "oh it's not me, its my bipolar making me do it" LOL
You are truly pathetic.
But hey, put that clip back up to detract from your own failings quickly. Mr Responible Hardcore Label Owner, and massive contributer to the UK Hardcore scene LOL you do make me laugh little boy, you really do.
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LeVzi
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:49:36
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Originally posted by DJ Sketchy:
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
A few things to address.
"As much as I disklike Sparkz". Hahahaaa. That has made my day. "Levzi - This is (The Ultimate) (Remix)" - submitted to me but never released. Then I had a decent idea to go with HP2 which you moaned about. I can deal with being disliked though after 17 years of producing in the scene which may or may not have been mostly shit, but still, I gave it a go and is way more than you've ever done for the scene.
Hixxy - The problem with him was money. The early days were great and clearly the guy had a passion for the music but then it was pure greed. Only being arsed to produce when there's money involved. Using his formerly established name to pop up again to get money from bookings. Fans were treated like cash cows who will pay money to see him "because it's Hixxy".
He made promises to fans about the HTID mp3 store and so on which was bull all along then gave no explanation, which is fine to people because afterall, it's Hixxy. He's just someone who only produces when he's spent his gains.
Samination - Oh come on, I enjoy rubbing people up the wrong way these days on HHC, you should know by now. If there's a chance then why not. Q91-ing the scene would be butthurt as it's screwing people out of cash when the scene probably needed a cash boost (DJ Kurt ? Rock Ya Hardcore QSH055-MP3-2004-Q91 (CBR 256 kbps)), but all good, you are a reformed guy these days who didn't mean it.
Sketchy - You came here with the intention of self bummage. As I recall you suddenly popped up here again going on about your own work and so on. You occasionally join in with a discussion.
Your point was complete tat. Keeping sets exclusive? For people to only hear if they went out to a club filled with many off their heads?
If someone is keeping tracks exclusively to live sets then it's blatantly a money making tactic and a total "f**k you" to the scenes loyal followers all because CD's aren't really a thing anymore and so there's no money to be made selling that way.
You?ve got me wrong really mate. I was VERY mentally unwell when I joined this board. So was very green with what I was saying. I?m not looking at posting on here often. As messages on here are permanent, and I need to protect myself. Just chill with me though if you can Sparkz. I?m not out to get people?s backs up.
Listen mate, don't worry about Sparkz, this is what he does. Regardless of anyones situation , if he has reason to attack you, he will. If you have issues, then don't worry about it, cos normally people are sympathetic towards, but people like Sparkz arent only until its too late. He's done it before and will do it again , when it suits him. This board is decent tbh, we don't all agree and we sometimes have a few exchanges, but Sparkz will always take it personally and try to take it to the extreme, as he is doing now with me, over something that was said a decade ago. You can't win with people like that, believe me, I've met loads. He's not worth the air he breathes. But enough about him, enjoy the board cos it is decent here. Probably the only HHC board going thats worth anything.
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LeVzi
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:53:17
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Ironically it's fking funny listening to that, I made it on a cracked copy of FL Studio 6, with no clue about limiting or anything really, and ironically I did blow the sub on a set of Tapco S5's that i'd just bought, so I managed to send them back claiming they were faulty and got a new set ! LOL which are still going strong, so I am told I gave them to my step son.
I made a bunch of crap tracks like that back then and even sent a CD to Lenny Dee ! LOL But tbh in total respect to him, he even replied back and said I had to improve and told me areas to work on. What a legend. But then he is. Someone who'd take time out of his day to advise even the worst of producers like me, and that meant so much at the time that I kept going and improved a lot.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:53:52
Ah my boy LeVzi.
No that's not how it happened at all.
You sent me your work back around 2007, yes? That was for Lightning Sunset Records. That was dead and buried.
Fast forward to HP2 and what happened? You were trying to call shots even though you had nothing to provide. I came up with a good idea for the album of a totally optional entry fee. Each submission could pay ?5 if they wanted to be entered into a raffle to have a bigname remix their entry. This was entirely optional as stated and gave small names a chance to have their track remixed and likely featured on bigger albums by a huge name for a small fee (Funding had to come from somewhere).
You hated that idea. You totally slated it, even though I'd paid a fair chunk of cash from my pocket to get some big names on board to support the album.
Originally back on HP after you made a song and dance, I put your old work up, not to laugh but to say "He's slating it but he's done shit all to help, lets see what he's done". There was no malice as I stated it was your old early days work and you just didn't have anything new to offer but were trying to call the shots.
Nobody laughed. The usual regulars just brushed it off and nothing came of it. I then stepped away from the project for a few reasons.
I don't do that to anyone. You've always had the high horse that you can do better and what comes of it? Nothing. Then you admit to disliking me, which no doubt stems back to the HP2 fiasco.
Logically I'm going to defend myself and if you are someone like me, with very little to live for anymore, who drinks more beer than water and in my mental state would rather have a reaction from someone than silence (As I have to live with day in, day out), then it's all too logical
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:56:34
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Originally posted by DJ Sketchy:
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
Sketchy,
Sorry to hear that and fair play, sorry to hear about your health. I fully hold my hands up and admit I've made a mistake. You've done nothing wrong whatsoever.
I've been a tosser entirely and for most the part, with my own mental health stuff (as people here who know me will agree), I take shit too far and go overboard. 2bh, I only post on here when pissed anyway (as when sober, anxiety gets the better of me), usually that means I have a gripe with someone about a non issue and let it vent, massively going overboard and being a complete twat. Sadly at that moment, I saw your comment first really. You've helped make some classics and are an asset to the core scene.
Sincerely I apologise and it's rare I say that here. Respect man and any time you want to talk about mental health stuff if it's down to a low point again, give me a buzz as I know what it's like (Trust me, the pug in all my music vid uploads has saved me).
Respect and genuine apologies again... keep posting here!!!!
Ahh mate that?s really good of you to say. Thanks. Yeah they have me on these god awful injections once a month. I have black outs all the time on it. Doctors can?t do anything about the black outs though, as I have low blood pressure.
I have built myself a kick ass music studio at home. So committing the next 3-5 years studying hard and hopefully making a go of it!
Also I am pressing my original material Hardcore album with the Organ Donors next year. Pressing 2000-3000 copies. Then handing them out after raves and online!
No probs man. Sorry to hear about the injections. It sounds really tough.
Studying? Already talented though with the work you've done? Sweet, will be on the lookout for the album. Bangin stuff
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:01:33
LeVzi, I was winding you up overall.
My production is total shit. We all know that.
I have serious issues. Like huge. I'm on disability myself at the moment and unfit to work. I deliberately chose the worst bit of your sample mix to put up for the sake of getting a reaction.
It's not all like that and some of the sounds and samples you used, which I told you at the time were decent with other parts of your tracks. One which had a Slipmatt style kick was decent.
That ain't bad at all
"oh it's not me, its my bipolar making me do it"
Not at all, I don't have bi-polar. I have others which just means I'm very reserved and quiet, but when combined with my circumstances, I often feel there's nothing more in life than to drink. The booze can potentially play havok in combo and sometimes I exceed my confidence and post here. When it's like that, I don't care who I offend or what I say because afterall, I don't have anything to live for and I feel I've done my duty to the scene.
The answer? Carry on as I am or quit drinking and have nothing. We all know the NHS aren't any good at providing any help.
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MusicILove
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:40:52
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
LeVzi, I was winding you up overall.
My production is total shit. We all know that.
I have serious issues. Like huge. I'm on disability myself at the moment and unfit to work. I deliberately chose the worst bit of your sample mix to put up for the sake of getting a reaction.
It's not all like that and some of the sounds and samples you used, which I told you at the time were decent with other parts of your tracks. One which had a Slipmatt style kick was decent.
That ain't bad at all
"oh it's not me, its my bipolar making me do it"
Not at all, I don't have bi-polar. I have others which just means I'm very reserved and quiet, but when combined with my circumstances, I often feel there's nothing more in life than to drink. The booze can potentially play havok in combo and sometimes I exceed my confidence and post here. When it's like that, I don't care who I offend or what I say because afterall, I don't have anything to live for and I feel I've done my duty to the scene.
The answer? Carry on as I am or quit drinking and have nothing. We all know the NHS aren't any good at providing any help.
May I suggest going to see a social prescriber (I think that?s what they are called) if it is available in your area. They can be accessed through your GP. I had a meeting with one Monday last week and already in a week she has done so much to help me make progress. I?m not getting my hopes up but I really feel for once she is on my side. I would recommend if you can or haven?t already trying to get an appointment with one.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:50:37
Nah it's a load of shit round here. Been trying to move for ages to get something like that. I had a guaranteed swap a few months back but said swapper pissed me around last minute. Social prescribing is definitely a great thing when its available.
The in-between parts are tricky when waiting to move as it means anti-d's which have done nothing but make me want to off myself even more, or drinking, which although is great becomes a "pissant" when I can't even look at forums, let alone post unless I've had a good few.
That's actually mad, being at a point where it's impossible to integrate or take anymore semi blows while sober, so it's all left until when pissed, then it's the "give no shits" and "tear everyone to shreds" feeling.
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DJ Sketchy
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:52:16
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Originally posted by LeVzi:
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Originally posted by DJ Sketchy:
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
A few things to address.
"As much as I disklike Sparkz". Hahahaaa. That has made my day. "Levzi - This is (The Ultimate) (Remix)" - submitted to me but never released. Then I had a decent idea to go with HP2 which you moaned about. I can deal with being disliked though after 17 years of producing in the scene which may or may not have been mostly shit, but still, I gave it a go and is way more than you've ever done for the scene.
Hixxy - The problem with him was money. The early days were great and clearly the guy had a passion for the music but then it was pure greed. Only being arsed to produce when there's money involved. Using his formerly established name to pop up again to get money from bookings. Fans were treated like cash cows who will pay money to see him "because it's Hixxy".
He made promises to fans about the HTID mp3 store and so on which was bull all along then gave no explanation, which is fine to people because afterall, it's Hixxy. He's just someone who only produces when he's spent his gains.
Samination - Oh come on, I enjoy rubbing people up the wrong way these days on HHC, you should know by now. If there's a chance then why not. Q91-ing the scene would be butthurt as it's screwing people out of cash when the scene probably needed a cash boost (DJ Kurt ? Rock Ya Hardcore QSH055-MP3-2004-Q91 (CBR 256 kbps)), but all good, you are a reformed guy these days who didn't mean it.
Sketchy - You came here with the intention of self bummage. As I recall you suddenly popped up here again going on about your own work and so on. You occasionally join in with a discussion.
Your point was complete tat. Keeping sets exclusive? For people to only hear if they went out to a club filled with many off their heads?
If someone is keeping tracks exclusively to live sets then it's blatantly a money making tactic and a total "f**k you" to the scenes loyal followers all because CD's aren't really a thing anymore and so there's no money to be made selling that way.
You?ve got me wrong really mate. I was VERY mentally unwell when I joined this board. So was very green with what I was saying. I?m not looking at posting on here often. As messages on here are permanent, and I need to protect myself. Just chill with me though if you can Sparkz. I?m not out to get people?s backs up.
Listen mate, don't worry about Sparkz, this is what he does. Regardless of anyones situation , if he has reason to attack you, he will. If you have issues, then don't worry about it, cos normally people are sympathetic towards, but people like Sparkz arent only until its too late. He's done it before and will do it again , when it suits him. This board is decent tbh, we don't all agree and we sometimes have a few exchanges, but Sparkz will always take it personally and try to take it to the extreme, as he is doing now with me, over something that was said a decade ago. You can't win with people like that, believe me, I've met loads. He's not worth the air he breathes. But enough about him, enjoy the board cos it is decent here. Probably the only HHC board going thats worth anything.
Thanks mate. Like, I understand I got people?s backs up a few years ago on here. I am a lot more settled now though.
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The drunken scotsman
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:56:32
Theres nothing like a good Hixxy thread to get the chat buzzing on this forum.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 08:00:49
Can't beat it :D.
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LeVzi
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 08:35:05
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
LeVzi, I was winding you up overall.
My production is total shit. We all know that.
I have serious issues. Like huge. I'm on disability myself at the moment and unfit to work. I deliberately chose the worst bit of your sample mix to put up for the sake of getting a reaction.
It's not all like that and some of the sounds and samples you used, which I told you at the time were decent with other parts of your tracks. One which had a Slipmatt style kick was decent.
That ain't bad at all
"oh it's not me, its my bipolar making me do it"
Not at all, I don't have bi-polar. I have others which just means I'm very reserved and quiet, but when combined with my circumstances, I often feel there's nothing more in life than to drink. The booze can potentially play havok in combo and sometimes I exceed my confidence and post here. When it's like that, I don't care who I offend or what I say because afterall, I don't have anything to live for and I feel I've done my duty to the scene.
The answer? Carry on as I am or quit drinking and have nothing. We all know the NHS aren't any good at providing any help.
No Sparkz, there's no point trying to plaster over the cracks now, as this is the 2nd time you've done the same thing, and you wanted a reaction, you got it. Bottom line is, you'd say and do anything to cause offence, because you feel like its some kind of self healing process to make everyone else feel as shit as you do.
I wont listen to excuses, reasons why, etc etc etc to do with mental health, because i've been there, I am there, and I always will be there. I used to do the same damn thing until I had a big wake up call a few years back.
Saying shit on the internet is piss easy compared to facing up to your own issues, its a form of venting and anger release, but all it does is make you feel worse yet you keep doing it, it's a vicious cycle. If you are anything like me you have an addictive personality and take things to the absolute extreme and don't stop until you are exhausted and ill from it, then you focus on something else after a bout of depression.
Been there, got the T Shirt and do it regularly.
No point saying that track had any good elements to it, it didn't, it was shit.
But, my feelings to one side, you state about all your mental health issues, all your problems, nothing to live for etc, again, its nothing new to me. I found solace in the bottom of a pint glass, I found peace in pain, all the wrong things to focus on. I bounced around from one bad habit to another, from one thing (Music production) to another (Fishing) until an unhealthy lifestyle, being overweight, and smoking finally caught up with me and I developed diabetes. I changed my life, got fit, got strong and went into powerlifting late in my life. Yes I went too far with it, I was obsessed, and was heavily using steroids, and eventually my body, said NO, and I had a heart attack. But since that point, i've fought back and i'm stronger now than I was then.
My point is, I was at a low point like you say you are, and I decided to change it, which I did, and since that point, im now married, have a house, am fit n strong as a 45 year old bastard can be, and I enjoy life. Yes I have my bad times, and yes I still get ill, I don't work, nor will I ever, as I have bipolar, they know i'm a risk and I am not able to use medication now thanks to the dodgy heart.
So to me, getting shit on a forum is water off a ducks back. And i find it funny that i've had this exact same row with you twice now, over that shitty demo track.
THing is now you might be sober, next time you drink we'll be back there again and you'll do it all again. It just makes you look a bigger c_u_n_t than you already do.
You may not be able to find help in your current area, but there is help to be found if you need it, but help starts within. Unless you want to see past the dark shit, you wont. You'll always wallow in self pity and hate and anger, and you'll feed off it. You'll feel like shit sober, and regret it, then feel vindicated and wanna do it more when drunk.
It's up to you how it all goes, end of the day, your life is your responsibility, and only you can decide to do something about it, or just carry on in the self destructive manner and stop living and just survive.
You say you want the help, you say there is nothing there, IIRC you are in the Monmouth area ? and there is nothing there, if you REALLY want help, get on a train or in your car and get to Gwent, it's not far, and you can find MIND and other mental health organisations that will offer you something, its up to you if you wanna make the effort to travel. I admit the help isn't perfect, but it's better than the nothing you have now. I can put you in touch with people in Newport, if you want, but you have to make the first move.
But my main advice, get in a gym, get some boxing gloves, lift weights, do cardio and smash fk outta a heavy bag, get the inner anger OUT, then you see things clearer. Worked for me.
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LeVzi
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 08:48:06
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Ah my boy LeVzi.
No that's not how it happened at all.
You sent me your work back around 2007, yes? That was for Lightning Sunset Records. That was dead and buried.
Fast forward to HP2 and what happened? You were trying to call shots even though you had nothing to provide. I came up with a good idea for the album of a totally optional entry fee. Each submission could pay ?5 if they wanted to be entered into a raffle to have a bigname remix their entry. This was entirely optional as stated and gave small names a chance to have their track remixed and likely featured on bigger albums by a huge name for a small fee (Funding had to come from somewhere).
You hated that idea. You totally slated it, even though I'd paid a fair chunk of cash from my pocket to get some big names on board to support the album.
Originally back on HP after you made a song and dance, I put your old work up, not to laugh but to say "He's slating it but he's done shit all to help, lets see what he's done". There was no malice as I stated it was your old early days work and you just didn't have anything new to offer but were trying to call the shots.
Nobody laughed. The usual regulars just brushed it off and nothing came of it. I then stepped away from the project for a few reasons.
I don't do that to anyone. You've always had the high horse that you can do better and what comes of it? Nothing. Then you admit to disliking me, which no doubt stems back to the HP2 fiasco.
Logically I'm going to defend myself and if you are someone like me, with very little to live for anymore, who drinks more beer than water and in my mental state would rather have a reaction from someone than silence (As I have to live with day in, day out), then it's all too logical
I don't have many memories about this HP2, I disliked a few people on that forum , like Hashlygreen and Douglas who were *******s, and you only used my old track for yours and that other guys amusment, what was his name ? Virtue, virtual ? Something like that. I have never said , ever, that I can do better than anyone in music production, simply because I class myself as an amateur and hobbyist, so for you to say I was going around telling people I could do better is laughable and a lie.
HP was a good place, I learnt a fair bit there inbetween the ********, it's no secret im not a fan of UK Hardcore, always preferred earlier music, but I tried to get into it. And tried to make it, never really achieved much but it allowed me to find my true love which is terrorcore, and I had more success with.
So hearing this regurged now, makes me laugh, because you are grasping at straws for reasons to be a pr!ck, and coming up short. You can keep calling me all the cu_nts going if it makes you feel better, really doesnt bother me, but don't lie about sh!t, to justify yourself nor keep telling us you drink more alcohol than water now cos its all you got left, cos you'll get no sympathy from me.
Like I said in the the post, I can show you where there is help, it's up to you if you use it or not.
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 09:07:22
I'm not plastering over anything? I was out of order with many things, fact. We've had 2 things over your work but the last time didn't end like this? You laughed, shrugged it off. All was good.
Equally I'm not saying your track had good elements to it when it was shit. It wasn't shit, there's that decent Slipmatt kick to it and a few positive elements.
No excuses, I've been like this for years on the forum, although covered it up well after. Having a dig or whatever, then the next day covering it up with "oh, didn't mean it in that way" and it's all "ahh, I see, no worries".
I only upload stuff of mine when I've specifically been getting smashed to that track. When sober I don't even listen to music. I just get by as best I can. When drunk I have that nostalgic buzz and confidence to post online, but as of lately it's been getting pretty lame for various reasons.
I'm probably yet to hit that point where health and body literally says no more.
My life does consist of nothing and the severe anxiety prevents there being anything else. I mean, it was only a few weeks back I was down the pub not even drinking booze. Some nice looking lass approached me and you know what her assumption was after we started chatting? Questioning if I'd been on drugs because of my shaking. Another massive set back because of mental health.
That's the story of my life though. People like Mansy, Martin-J and a few others here can legitimately vouch for that being the case with me struggling, they've known me for years. They know a lot about what I've gone through and what it's like for me.
Why is it that I'm in full receipt of disability benefits where even the assessment staff have stated I clearly need more support that I'm getting? ESA assessors are notorious, but in my case they've always been very understanding.
I've been back to the doctors no less than 30 times in the last 10 years to try and help myself. Always fobbed off, either given meds I've later tried to end my life with or sent away with some nonsense sheet of paper.
There is no self pity or anything. My family have died, it is what it is.
What's the "help within" with that? Being accepting of it? It doesn't just happen like that. It needs medical intervention which I'm simply not given.
Same as when I walk out that door, I'm a nervous wreck. Kids in the street frequently laugh at my symptoms. It messes up my own life where I can't even buy a loaf of bread at a shop without coming home in tears because of the symptoms. Where's the "help within" for physical symptoms I can't just control?
It's past any help within, I'm in need of serious medical help which the services just can't provide.
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 09:23:03
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
I don't have many memories about this HP2, I disliked a few people on that forum , like Hashlygreen and Douglas who were *******s, and you only used my old track for yours and that other guys amusment, what was his name ? Virtue, virtual ? Something like that. I have never said , ever, that I can do better than anyone in music production, simply because I class myself as an amateur and hobbyist, so for you to say I was going around telling people I could do better is laughable and a lie.
HP was a good place, I learnt a fair bit there inbetween the ********, it's no secret im not a fan of UK Hardcore, always preferred earlier music, but I tried to get into it. And tried to make it, never really achieved much but it allowed me to find my true love which is terrorcore, and I had more success with.
So hearing this regurged now, makes me laugh, because you are grasping at straws for reasons to be a pr!ck, and coming up short. You can keep calling me all the cu_nts going if it makes you feel better, really doesnt bother me, but don't lie about sh!t, to justify yourself nor keep telling us you drink more alcohol than water now cos its all you got left, cos you'll get no sympathy from me.
Like I said in the the post, I can show you where there is help, it's up to you if you use it or not.
Yeah I remember those people. Virtue but he had long left by then?
It was more to do with trying to call the shots when you weren't even offering anything. The ?5 optional payment per submission was a great idea as people could have bagged a ?300 remix by a big name for ?5. You didn't like that idea and slated it massively.
That was at the time with the Mark Breeze fiasco where I'd asked him how much it would cost to remix a track and he said some stupidly high amount. I posted what he said publicly and he went tits slagging me off on his own fan page.
I'm not grasping at straws, I'm being honest. I don't care about your sympathy or anyone else's for that matter. If I wanted sympathy I'd still have my fanpage running and go off sobbing to them. I deleted it, just like I deleted my old SC account with over 1000 subs and Youtube channel which had around 5000.
You appeared to want reasons for my behaviour, I've given them. In fact if you look at a post I did around 6 months ago, I was actually asking for a way to delete my HHC account to prevent incidents like this.
I'd rather be shut off from society and just try and do what I can.
Let's be honest here, If I'm at a point where I'd happily trash my place or delete all my production profiles I spent over 10 years building up, what would it matter to me if I was having a go at a few people on a forum?
Very little really, although I've explained the facts behind it and for those it offends I am sorry.
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