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SparkzMusic
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Zimbabwe
334 posts
Joined: Apr, 2011
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 Posted - 2019/06/27 : 21:10:55
That point in life where idk, you've done what you can, often done the extra mile and meh well society gives a big F.U.
I stood there earlier, 100% legit thinking "nah, enough is enough". Edge of train tracks, sitting legs over the lines, kicking wires with my feet, just seeing. It did **** all as they were rubber coated and insulated.
Still, after taking a pic (not for that insta or FB spaz shit, but for the NHS to suck on once it was done), I got up, and said "**** it man, better being on the train than under it".
It comes to a tiring point. Losing it all, music, gf's, life, family, everything.
The next day is "**** it, let's carry on because after all, no c*nt cares either way, so why hand it on a plate?"
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Edited by - SparkzMusic on 2019/06/27 21:46:32 |
djDMS
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United Kingdom
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Posted - 2019/06/27 : 21:39:57
Life can do that to you mate.
I've been there, still am from time to time but being able to carry on is a big deal, keep doing that.
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SparkzMusic
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Zimbabwe
334 posts
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Posted - 2019/06/27 : 21:54:49
Absolutely man.
What really ****ing makes me mad is the NHS killed my mother via medical mistakes, then ****ed up my uncle as well who died.
They bodged up an arm operation I had prior to that (including giving me another patents notes to hand to my GP) then covered it up.
Every fkin time I see a GP its the usual BS. Other teams I see are no different. It's got me to a point where I never see a GP now about anything. I just cant bring myself to go.
Albeit I'm on ESA where even assessment staff have been understanding. .........Telling me I clearly need X support. I go back to the NHS to get it and nah.
Enough is enough and I'm going private, even though I cant afford it entirely, it's the best way
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thedjjudah
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United States
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Joined: Feb, 2009
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Posted - 2019/08/19 : 21:22:28
Find your joy in God, my friend.
I've been to where you were at before. Got hospitalized because I wanted to kill myself. Jesus changed all that and now I have joy in my life. I have some downers, that's true, but God always lifts me out of them.
Before you shoot me down as a religious fanatic, just try asking God to help you. He will.
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MusicILove
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United Kingdom
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Posted - 2019/08/20 : 08:50:23
I Wish I could give you some inspirational carrying on with life words but I would be lying if I did. What I can say to you is I have really enjoyed your music over the years. I have enjoyed it just as much as tracks from the big producers. I?m happy mixing your tracks in to a Darren styles or Gammer track. Thanks for putting an intro on it must have been love. I really enjoyed mixing that one.
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djDMS
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Posted - 2019/08/21 : 14:10:36
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Originally posted by MusicILove:
I Wish I could give you some inspirational carrying on with life words but I would be lying if I did. What I can say to you is I have really enjoyed your music over the years. I have enjoyed it just as much as tracks from the big producers. I?m happy mixing your tracks in to a Darren styles or Gammer track. Thanks for putting an intro on it must have been love. I really enjoyed mixing that one.
Good job I didn't reply to your original post now, would have ended up looking a bit silly.
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MusicILove
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Posted - 2019/08/21 : 15:03:01
It?s my true thoughts and feelings but I don?t think it belongs here. So tired I can?t even think. Not able to judge what?s a good idea or not.
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